My first step

I have taken the first step on the road to the countdown.

Yesterday I did it...I gave it in...I handed in my notice.

I feel both exhilarated and scared.

Its funny how I am always alone for a few days after I make any lifechanging decisions. It always worries me as I could potential enter meltdown and start regreting my decisions. I wonder if I am alone for a reason. It seems as if I have to internalise what I have done or am about to do. Anyway, the BF is away today and so, it seems am am alone with my thoughts.

I know that my decision has been made by me and me alone. Noone forced or cooerced me into it. I do not want to stay in my work and that is clear. In that respect I am happy about my decision.

I know I will miss some people at my work. I will miss the familiarity, although not the lack of challenge.

I suppose at the end of each chapter, you will always look back to see what has happened. For a long time this has been my life. I have walked these ways because there have been no other to walk. I have walked in darkness and I have walked in light. Both have been frightening.